My, not so secret, obsession

When I decided that I was going to be a journalist or rather when I decided to study journalism I knew that it was not going to be something I focus on for the rest of my life.

But because life is unpredictable I do not know. I might just end up searching for stories the rest of my life but in a parallel world where I got to choose what I wanted to do, I would definitely be focusing on the one thing I have loved as long as I remember.

My secret obsession, fashion. I do not exactly know what I would like to do in the fashion industry specifically but its a cross between styling for photo-shoots and/or being Anna Wintour.  It is a little far fetched but what is a girl to do when she is a big dreamer?

The big question now is how am I ever going to make my dreams come true... I guess it all just starts with me getting my diploma in journalism and taking it from there. Tony Robbins was quoted saying, "Setting goals is the first step in changing the invisible to visible." Ima keep that with me this week.

Have a good week wherever you are!!!!!

xoxoxoxoxox

Eyes wide open

I see things and people for what they really are now.

It is depressing that this week had to be what it was. I realised that the people I thought I was close to I actually am not. I am not one to rant and rave about situations I can not change but this time around I can't even help it.

I have spent over a year with the same people, vibing with them and thinking I was one of 'them' but truth be hold I am not. So I have taken it upon myself to stop trying to fit in. I know the world has made us think we need people to survive but I am going to try to go through life with less people.

I mean I have my mother, my family, I have God so in actual fact I just need to be satisfied with that and move on. My days of thinking friends will always be there to hold your hand in the dark are fading away quickly and that's not such a bad thing. I read a quote recently and it reads,"Make as many friends as you can, but don't build your life on them alone. It is an unstable foundation."

If I am going to take anything from this unfortunate situation it will be strength. I will not be defined by the number of people I have in my life.

Hopefully I wont be this mad for my next post.

xoxoxoxo

When the holiday ends

Being home was like being in rehab the past three weeks and I mean that in the best way ever.

University is busy and is a rush, I always have to hand an assignment in or have to go chasing someone down for a story and when I do get a break, scarcely, all I can think about is when the next assignment is due. Basically I never have the time to just sit down and think, take a break and just not worry about anything. I guess only children get to do that now.

But being at home helped me get away. I was away from the rush, the unhealthy food, unhealthy habits, loud corridors just everything. I was in the peaceful space of the house that I grew up in and quite frankly it is exactly what I needed. I wish the holiday could have been longer in fact because the work I did just on myself was rewarding. but now I'm back to stressing and that suffocating feeling is coming back. The fact that the second semester is shorter and we have to finish everything in order to pass is making me suffocate faster.

SOS!!!!

xoxoxoxoxo